april showers bring may flowers...

Well my parents have been split up since the summer and I have been living at the house with my mom and sisters while my dad moved out to Webster. Recently my mom has made me aware that we probably wont be living in the house that we have been living in for the rest of my life for much longer. By the end of the summer my mom and sisters will be moving to a two bedroom apartment. This means I too will have to find a place of my own. I was hoping to be able to stay in the dorms and be able to come home on breaks and during the summer. But it looks like i will have to find an apartment to live in for a good long time because there will be no room for me in a two bedroom apartment. I guess i am not ready to give up the house, it is filled with so many memories. I cannot imagine not coming home to green grass and trees and a big back yard. Whats more my sisters were very upset because they will have to give up the goats and Sam her dog. I was most upset by the fact that unless i can find someplace that allows dogs and i can afford i too will have to find a home for my dog savannah who i love very much. I cannot bear giving savannah up to someone else. I can only hope things will work out alright in the end.

first let me start off with on wednesday night my car broke down at night in newark and wasnt fixed until friday

let me outline encounters with law enforcement for the week-

thursday-parking ticket because my freaking parking pass slid off my dash on my neon

friday-got pulled over in my toyota at brockport for talking on my cell luckly i didnt get a ticket but the cop was a jerk

saturday(tonight)-got pulled over by a trooper for speeding in a work zone which is going to cost me a few hundred dollars for this freaking ticket

 

so ive come to the conclusion that my driving record is going to hell and hopefully the next thing to come my way isnt an accident

"Like the elephant, we are unconscious of our own strength. When it comes to understanding the power we have to make a difference in our own lives, we might as well be asleep. If you want to make your dreams come true, wake up. Wake up to your own strength. Wake up to the role you play in your own destiny. Wake up to the power you have to choose what you think, do, and say."

 

After last weekend and the events that came with it I was really feeling sorry for myself. But I was thinking when it was all done would feeling sorry for myself really help? or change the events that happened? No, in fact feeling sorry for yourself can sometimes make you feel worse. It was time I took charge of whether the events in my life were going to get me down and ruin my day. I have the power to make a bad situation better and make the best of my life. I only have one life and its only getting shorter. Its time I live it and play an active role.